I want to thank everyone for their prayers & concerns. Its been a rough time for myself & my family.

By the time most of you will read this, Shane will have been taken off the ventilator. He will no longer be scared. He will no longer be in pain.

Over the weekend, Shane went back into the hospital. It would be his last trip. He had pneumonia in both lungs. On Saturday evening, he flat lined. They were able to bring him back, but he had been down for too long.

The brain scan came back. He was a vegetable. The blood work came back, he was spetic. That's what caused him to flat line in the first place. His brother signed the papers on Monday. It had been discussed & decided long ago, Shane didn't want to live this way.

The decision was made to keep Shane on support until the family could get there. Once they are all there, they will take him off the vent.

Part of me is happy that he won't be in pain any longer. The other part of me can't live without him. And all of me never wanted to have to be writing this.

I want to be there to say goodbye, but I can't be. Its really best that I'm not. Some people have done some things that I don't agree with & I would physically hurt them. They did them to Shane. Got him when he couldn't fight back. Or so they thought. But he will fight back, it will just be through me.

He wouldn't want me to be sad. He wouldn't want me to cry. But I can't help it. I'm going to be sad for a little while. I miss him already. But I will have to say good bye in my own time & on my own terms. I'm just not ready yet. And I can honestly say that the quote I use as my signature can never be any more relevant than it is right now.