The Siegfried & Roy show down at the Mirage apparently has some "technical" difficulties last night.  Seems that one of the tigers turned on Roy.  I've never seen the show, but its suppose to be quite good.  Hope the poor guy pulls through.  You can read about it [here].

I guess its a good thing I don't eat red meat all that much anymore.  Otherwise I might find [this] a bit ridiculous.  And no, I'm not one of those health nut types.  Not that there's anything wrong with that.  To each their own.  Red meat just makes me sick to my stomach. =/

One day a few months ago, I was walking through, as my brother likes to call it, the white trash capital of the world.  Otherwise known as Wal-Mart.  As I'm flying past the toy department in an attempt to escape through the garden center, I stopped in my tracks.  Out of the corner of my eye I swear I saw a giant penis in a box.

Of course I had to investigate.  Focusing on the box I noticed two giant teeth.  A HA!  Peni do have teeth.  Whoa!  Hold up.  Now they have teeth, eyes & appendages.  Sweet Jesus!  Since when did Wal-Mart start selling plush mutated sexual organs in the toy department?

Upon further investiagtion I find that the plush penis is actually named Rufus.  Yes, it has a name.  Its also a children's cartoon character.  Rufus is a naked mole rat from Disney's Kim Possible.  To me, Rufus will never be a mole rat, but a naked buck tooth penis.  Remember that when you are buying Christmas gifts this year.  I love Rufus!

The shit trifecta is complete.  They always say it hapens in threes right?  If so, then yesterday completed mine.  YAY!  No more to worry about until the next awful thing happens.  This one happened pretty fast too.  Within a matter of weeks.

First leg - Shane died on Sept. 10.  I won't go into deatails, you can read about it down there.

Second leg - Something really ugly happened & I'm not talking about it.  Period.

Final leg - Nice little car wreck yesterday afternoon.  Some punk ass kid ran his stop sign.  He ends up right in the middle of on coming traffic & we t-boned him.  No one was seriously hurt than God.  I have a doctor's appointment this morning.  My shoulder is killing me, my hands are tingly & I feel like I'm gonna puke.  The car has to go into the shop.  Hopefully everything will go smoothly.  Yeah right.

So there you have it.  Three nasty little things, but at least its over.  I was worried that the 3rd thing was going to take place at the Saliva show in the 17th.  No need to worry now.  YAY!

Guess what?!  I was screwing around when I should be doing something constructive.  Horror of horrors I know.  I've had a bad day, leave me alone.

Anyhow, I was reading Miss Ginger's blog when I was screwing around.  That's where I found the whore quiz.  Gotta give her credit for that.  Besides, she cracks me up.

Well boys & girls, I'm whorish.  Does that mean I am a whore or just sway in the way of the whore?  hmmm  I'll have to look into that.

take the virgin-whore dichotomy quiz.
and go to mewing.net.
This one is just too funny.



find YOUR drag persona
and go to mewing.net. 

Gotta love the punk ass kids in Vegas.  Oh & joy, they live in my part of town.  Read about the little bastards [here].

Well, my old journal site still isn't back up.  There are some things there I wanted to share dammit!  But the most important ones, I realized I had posted on a message board I moderate.  September started off OK, but quickly turned into a giant pile of cow shit.

Once again I'm having to change clients.  The one I have been using has been down for over a week.  It really pisses me off.  But then I guess that's what I get for using free services.  Hopefully it will be back up one day.  When it is, I'll spend a nice evening wasting my time reposting everything here.  Otherwise, some people might be a little lost when it comes to me.  Besides, there's nothing worse than having to repeat yourself.

Hopefully, this one will last for a while.

Right now I'm really angry. Not with Shane. With his side of the family. His brother has taken care of him. My mom has taken care of him. They never came around or even offered to help, not even with $10 even though my sister & BIL have nothing & 4 children of their own to care for. They aren't angry about that & they wouldn't have changed a thing.

But now these people are stepping in & trying to take over. They think they know what Shane would have wanted. They know dick. They always berated him for his tats & piercings. Bet they shit themselves when they saw him laying in that bed with blue hair. teehee Mom just dyed it for him last week.

I know, I'm off on a tangent. I'm trying not to be sad, I'm trying not to cry. But its not working. I told my mom to make sure they play him some decent music. He would hate all those church hymns. It just wasn't him.

The services will be Monday. They are holding off because my nephews' birthday thing is this weekend. My mom & one of my nephews share a birthday & that is tomorrow.

I keep telling myself that I should be grateful that I had him in my life. That now, he's not in pain & he's whole again. That now he gets to be with his mother that he loved so very much. But it still hurts. I still sit here in the dark & cry.

They took Shane off the ventilator today. I was out when Mom called to tell me. I made it through lunch & only cried at the end. After lunch, I sat down at a machine & ordered a shot of Rumplemintz & a Guinness. I remember looking at my phone for the time because I wanted to know what was taking the cocktail waitress so fucking long. It was 1:58 pm. The waitress arrived soon after.

I sat there for maybe a minute & looked at my drinks sitting there on the machine cabinet. I picked up my shot & said to myself "This is for you Shane. I love you." and downed it. It couldn't have been 15 seconds later as my throat was still stinging, that 3 Doors Down came on in the casino. It was When I'm Gone. I lost it. At 2:14 pm, my phone rings. Its Mom. She told me that Shane was gone. He took his last precious breath at about 4 pm CST or 2 pm my time.

Was it a coincidence? Probably. But its funny how it worked out. I miss him so much.


3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone

There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There's secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Maybe I'm just blind...

Maybe I'm just blind...

[chorus]
So hold me when I'm here
Love me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything you need
I'll also be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Love me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
[end chorus]

Love me when I'm gone...

When your education x-ray
Can not see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

[chorus]

Maybe I'm just blind...

[chorus]

Love me when I'm gone...

Love me when I'm gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone